So I know its been awhile since I've written in here but I NEED to vent. Greg makes me feel like Tamina and I are an inconvenience in his sad little life. Like last night for instance was his birthday so he went out and got completely hammered....what an adult.He knew he had to watch Tamina today because everyone else had to work and he still went out and got shit faced and didn't come home until 2 am. Now that I am home he's in there sleeping off a hangover. Which yeah right now you all are probably thinking, wow this chick is nuts, get over it. It was his birthday,let him sleep. But there's so much more, and maybe you'll understand once I'm done.

Since we got home from the hospital Greg and I have BARELY spent ANY time together. First it was because he was in school and always had homework and blah blah blah. Any free time he had he was in the room ALONE being moody and cranky watching sports. Then he started work and now he doesn't come home until 12-1 o'clock in the morning when he gets off work at 11. What the hell am I supposed to think about that? He goes out drinking with the 'boys' after work EVERY NIGHT. Well someone posted a picture on facebook the other day of him out with his boss and two girls the other night. Again WTF am I supposed to think about that?

I asked him to come home after work so we could spend at least a little bit of time together before I had to go to bed for work in the morning. And does he do it? NOPE he continues to go out and drink every night. Then I make comments like obviously I care about spending time with you more than you do me. And I get the response that I'm being a drama queen or that an hour before I have to sleep doesn't matter so he might as well stay out. Last night he didn't even ask me to stay with him and hang out. He made a comment after the fact and then said 'well I didn't think you'd want to. I figured you'd want to stay in like you always do.' The FEW times he has actually asked me to go out I have went, so that he could have fun with his friends and I could spend time with him.

All I ever want or wanted was to spend time with him, and all he ever wants is to spend time with his friends. It makes me feel like crap....I have tried plenty of times to do things with him or suggest things we could do together. The end result is always the same....I never get any time.... I try talking to him and I never get anywhere....I'm always over reacting or being a drama queen....

I don't know what to do anymore....I feel unwanted...useless. Tamina is the best thing in my life and the only person, besides my mother, that loves me unconditionally....I guess I'll have to get used to only having her.

By the way today is Elijah's due date....Probably another reason I am so upset and cranky....I miss him.