Changes

Why is it that my mom and I open our house up and allow Kristine and Nic, and their rambunctious puppy, to move back in for a while because they couldn't stay where they were, but we are the ones that have to change our every day routines? Kristine's dog is way too playful and is constantly knocking Tamina down, so I made a comment stating so, and Kristine comes back saying, "Why don't you buy one of those circular gates and put Tamina in there so she doesn't get hurt by him and she stays out of the kitchen too." Um...yeah, if anyone went into a circular gate/cage it would be her dog. Her dog is sweet, but he is a puppy that won't listen when there is too much going on. Mom and I have a way of handling animals when they don't listen, and it is not by hitting them. I will admit that the only time I hit one of the dogs, is when they knock Tamina over or hurt her because they are being careless, and even then I am not beating them. Kristine and Nic hit the dog like crazy when he does something wrong, so today my mom made a comment about it and Kristine blew up saying that he is her dog and she can do whatever she wants and she began acting like a 5 year old throwing a tantrum. Kristine is now pregnant, shh don't tell anyone, and I am HATING it! She is seriously only 5 weeks pregnant, but she is constantly yelling or screaming or crying. I realize I was emotional during my pregnancy, but she is ridiculous. Because of what went down yesterday with her and Nic, she told mom she was going to ignore me for the rest of her life, yeah totally adult of her. Anyway, she was mad at me for being mad at them for disrespecting me and Tamina by acting like idiots and cursing like sailors around Tamina. I'm sorry but I would rather my daughter not learn the words they both say every five seconds. I do not see this living situation working out very well at all. We were getting along before they came back, but now with every day that passes, it gets closer and closer to how angry and frustrated I always was when they were here before. I don't want to be angry all time, I don't want Tamina to have to feel tension in the house all the time. I have been biting my tongue as much as I can, but I am running short on patience with them. I told Cyara that I can't wait for them to move out, and guess what!? She told Kristine! What the hell! So that is another reason Kristine is angry and upset with me. This whole situation is ridiculous and I refuse to play this game for long. If they are going to be here for a long time I wish they would let me know, because I would find somewhere else to live. Tamina is getting sick, she's laying in her crib sleeping lightly because she can't breathe out of her nose. It is the saddest thing! She has never had a cold, ever, so I am going to be a nervous wreck this entire time. She has an excellent immune system due to the fact that she had MRSA at two months old, so I am sure she will be fine, but it won't make me any less paranoid or worried. I feel so bad for my baby girl! I have finals in about a week or so, joy! I am so worried about how I am going to do on them, especially with so much else on my mind. I have to work in the morning so I am going to go text Joe a little more and then hit the sack. I'll tell him you all said hi! :) Happy Blogging!!

A few pictures of Tamina

So, today has been better on the Greg front. Hopefully the LOOOOOOONG talk we had last night actually gets through his head. I was in such a bad mood earlier before I came home, but once I got home and saw the beautiful face of my daughter I instantly felt better. Tamina is my whole world, and how could she not be? Look at that cute little face!! When I got home I asked Kristine, yeah her and her boyfriend are living here again....for now! Anyway, I asked Kristine if she would keep an eye on Tamina for about 20 minutes so I could do a test for school and she said okay. The next thing I know her and Nic (her boyfriend) are standing right next to Tamina, yelling and screaming at each other. Every other word out of Nic's mouth was GD and every other word out of Kristine's mouth was the F word. I looked at both of them and had to hold back for screaming at them both. I said I'm taking Tamina in the room with me and all of a sudden Kristine started attacking me. I don't have the patience for them anymore, especially when it comes to them fighting around Tamina. Today was a long day at work, and I honestly don't really have much to say. I think I am going to go watch "Kill Bill Vol. 1." Happy Blogging Everyone!!

So, I was asked today why I don't blog anymore and I didn't have answer. Why don't I? I miss blogging, it used to be my escape, my place to vent and say things that I can't say to anyone else. Things have been great with Tamina. She is off of all of the tubes and oxygen and everything, she is almost a year and a half, she's talking and walking, and she is the most beautiful and best behaved baby I have ever seen! I would be absolutely lost without my little girl!! I'll have to post some new pictures soon!

I am in college now, I go through University of Phoenix online. I am going for Early Childhood Education and I am loving it! Up until this set of classes I had a 4.0 but these classes are kicking my butt! I am still writing and wanting to publish my book but I still don't know how. Everything seems more difficult now a days, especially things with Greg. Yes, we are still having problems.

I have found inappropriate pictures, texts, emails, etc... And I have actually made him leave for a few weeks. Just when I think things are getting better I find more bad things though. I don't know what to do anymore, most of the time I feel so inadequate because of the things he does or doesn't do. He keeps saying things will be different but they are barely changing. This is the last chance though, I won't stay with him just for Tamina, that would make us all miserable. I have caught him enough times that he has finally changed all of his passwords, so now I can't even see what's going on anymore and I hate it! There is no trust, and that causes a lot of problems. The other night he said he was going to hang out at his dads and I ended up finding out he was out at the bar with friends. If there is nothing to hide, why not tell me where your going? I'm at my wits end guys!

I'm still friends with Joe, and I have a lot to say about him. I'll have to save that story for later though because I have to get back to work!

It feels good to be back. Happy Blogging!!!!