Gross moment

I have been on the phone all morning calling places looking for a job...I found two places that are hiring, Pizza Hut (which I've already worked at and hated it) and this little clothes store here in town. (which is only hiring for Saturday and Sunday) So it looks like I'm screwed. I'll be starting at Nancys something around Memorial Day, so that's not too far away but I wanted something year round also. :(

I still haven't heard back from the lawyers office. Maybe I'm being blown off, who knows? I had to cancel my doctors appointment today, because Greg had to work so he couldn't bring me. Which sucks because I have this huge lump on my right wrist and it hurts like all hell when I move it. Greg said he thinks it might be a cist which is fine but it hurts and I want them to fix it. Plus my body is soooo achy and the meds aren't working anymore, so I needed this appointment. I have another one on June3rd, so hopefully I can make it to that one.

I haven't mentioned this before because it's embarrassing and gross but I'm going to say it now in hopes that someone has experienced it and can give me advice. It's been almost 9 weeks since we lost Elijah and since the day I gave birth I have had hemorrhoids. They're small but very painful, and on top of that one of my lovely symptoms of Fibromyalgia is constipation...That mixed with the hemorrhoids is a bad mixture because when I go it hurts because it's so hard and it also hurts because of the hemorrhoids. I have used the cream but it doesn't seem to be helping. I swear I need one of those doughnut things you sit on. :( Okay so I apologize for grossing you all out, but I need someone to tell me what to do here. I'm in agonizing pain everyday from this. I dread going to the bathroom.

Okay I'm done talking about that now, but seriously if anyone knows what I should do, let me know. lol

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