One more strike and he's out! Seriously!!!

I'm very irritated. I'm pissed off, I'm hurt, and I seriously want to punch Greg in the face! Wednesday night he made a comment about going on tonight and asked if I wanted to go, I said sure. And then he said well we are gonna be staying the night at my dads house so we can get wasted. (I'm using my own words here) I don't stay away from my house, I do not sleep in any bed unless its my own. Or unless its absolutely necessary.

His dads house is 10 minutes away from ours, why in the hell would I want to stay there when I'm so close to home. I never stay out and he knows it! I have too many problems, I feel sick all the time and if I don't feel well I'd like to be in my own house and not in someone elses where I would feel completely awkward. He knows all this but for some reason he seriously still expected me to go.

I've mentioned before that Greg agreed to not drink unless I was there because he turns into this huge flirt! Well I'm not going tonight and he's still going out to get drunk with all his little buddies and stay the night out at his "dads" house. And then do it all over again tomorrow night too!

Now I'm not just pissed about the fact that he's going out to get drunk when he always said he wouldn't drink unless I was around. I'm pissed because I feel that since we are in an adult relationship, you don't get completely shit faced to the point where you can't dive 10 minutes to come home to your girlfriend. You go out for a few hours hang out and a couple beers, but come the hell home! I'm pissed because he's staying out not once, but twice in a row, when he knows how much I hate it!

I have barely spoken to him since Wednesday night. We fought yesterday and I gave him his freaking way so that I don't have to deal with him acting like a crazy ass because he couldn't go! It's so rude how he's not taking my feelings into consideration here. He doesn't give a shit that I'm angry and upset and hurt because he's being a dick and doing whatever the hell he wants to without thinking of me.

I told him from day one, before we even started dating that I hated when he drinks. I told him I would not be with him unless he quit. So he said he would. Then a few months later it was, "well I'll drink once in a while." then it was, "I'll only drink with you around." Now he's just going out to get drunk no matter how I feel about it or what I say about it! I can't stand him right now! I don't want to look at him, I don't want to talk to him!!

Last night he kept tugging on my arm, trying to play with me. What the hell is he thinking? I even told the selfish prick not to expect me to be in any form of a good mood with him anytime soon, and yet he's going to sit there and mess with me? It took all my mite not to turn around and start freaking yelling!!!!!!!!

As you can see I'm very very angry and upset!!! More and more he's started to do shit that Julian did to me. I will not put up with another 7 years of stupid shit that I don't deserve to go through! I more strike and I am finished, seriously!!!! I don't deserve this kind of treatment! I want someone who will choose ME over drinking or pot or whatever the hell their drug of choice is! Not someone who doesn't even take my feelings into consideration!!

I'm done, I don't want to talk anymore...I'll just end up talking in circles anyway...I'm going to try and find something calming to do before I end up on the news for beating the hell out of my boyfriend.

P.s. I still haven't talked to the doctor yet, about the results, but I'll keep you all posted!!!