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Okay...I got a phone call yesterday from the specialist in South Bend that I have been seeing. They said that my test results from the other day came back and that my blood count is normal but the test for down syndrome and deformities wasn't. It came back high/positive.

Now it could have come back that way because my due date is wrong, which obviously we are hoping for. But the reality of the situation is that it is possible that something could be mentally wrong with our baby, if there is I will love it just the same if not more. I'm sure everything is fine with the baby, I know that those tests come back positive in about 80% of all pregnancies tested and most of those babies are fine. So I'm not WAY concerned, but I am of course worried.

I have another doctor appointment there in South Bend on the 5th, so we should find out more then. But like I said, I'm sure everything is and will be fine. God won't take this one, he wouldn't have let me get pregnant this time if he was going to do that. I'm doing everything right; I'm eating right, I quit smoking, I rest, I do the heparin shots, I take my medication, I'm doing everything I possibly can. This baby WILL be okay.

On another note, I'm a little upset with Greg. He came over for about 5 or 6 days in a row and spent the night. But when I say he came over, I mean he came over at like 7 or 8 and we went to bed at 10. So that's a couple hours a day. He said earlier in the week that he would be here this weekend so we could spend some actual time together since he doesn't have to wake up early for school. But he hasn't been here. He didn't work on Thursday but he didn't come over, he didn't even tell me he didn't have to work until it was too late for him to come over.

He came and picked me up yesterday around noon to have lunch with his sister and then we came back here afterward and sat here for about 30 minutes before he decided he wanted to take a nap. I was irritated with that because I don't really get 'time' with him and now that I do all he wants to do is sleep. Then Kristine comes in and pretty much demands us to go get her tampons, very rudely, so he gets pissed and we go get them. He then drops me off and leaves......doesn't even come back in to try and salvage the day....I was pissed.

Then I was expecting him to come over today when he got off work at 5. But nope he went home and has been 'there' all day supposedly. So I told him he was a jerk for not coming over and now he's sitting there making it a bigger deal than I would have. He's saying 'Well you never come stay here!' I'm pretty sure it's best for me to be home considering I eat like a hog, I pee like a horse, and I can't sleep. I'm much more comfortable at home. Then he says, "Well you never come just to hang out!" I DON'T FREAKING DRIVE WTF!?!?! You want me to come over freaking ask me and pick me up. DUH!

Then he says, "I know you like being home with your family so I don't ask." Then don't bitch if you don't ask you don't give me the chance to say yes. Dip shit!! Now he's saying, "Is is too much to stay home when I've been there for 3 weeks straight!?" WTF is he talking about?!?! He's been here the past few days, not 3 weeks. And we've seen eachother like 2 hours a day for those days, so that's complete bullshit! I don't want him to text me anymore tonight, because he obviously don't seem to get that he's just pissing me off more with each and every smart ass dick headed remark.

Excuse me that I want to spend some ACTUAL TIME with my boyfriend rather than just sleeping near eachother. Excuse me that I want to get more time together before we have a baby taking up all of it. I just need to come to the realization that I obviously enjoy spending time with him more. I'm just not going to say anything anymore when he doesn't come over. I won't make a big deal about the fact that all he wants to do when he's here is sleep so we don't spend time together. At those moments I'll just leave the room. I'm done getting uspset about it.

I'm sick and I have been for a few days now and I can't seem to kick it, so I'm cranky as it is. Whatever I'm going to play some pogo and chill out.

Men suck!!