Explaination

Okay, so now that I have a little more time, I'll explain in more detail. I had all intentions on not going back. Moving forward and not looking back...but then Greg showed up.

It was awkward seeing him at first, I wanted to crawl across the bed, sit on his lap, and bawl my eyes out. I couldn't look at him, and for awhile he didn't look at me either. He started by explaining in more detail why he felt that he needed to move out. He said that he did it so that we would both realize that we need to get our lives together, going to school, saving money, etc...

He wants me to get my GED and go to school to be a kindergarten teacher like I keep saying I'm going to do...and he believes that if he was still living here, that I would not do it. Which isn't true by the way, if he would have said these things to me before and talk to me like I always asked him to, we may have been able to fix things before it got to this point.

He wants us to save money and get our own place eventually, and he feels that with him living here he won't be able to do that. He wants us to appreciate the time we get together more, because we both were taking it for granted...which is true.

He will still be here all the time, and on occasion spend the night. He just felt that we needed some time apart until we got our lives together...this will motivate me to move forward faster so that I can live with him again sooner...

I talked to quite a few people, and each one of those people kept saying how perfect we were together, how we should make this work, how we were the ones to make it, and so on, you get what I'm saying...and at first I was pissed, because I kept thinking GOD PEOPLE WE JUST BROKE UP SAY SOMETHING HELPFUL, but the more I thought about it, they were right...we are the ones to make it, and because of that, we can't give up when times get tough.

I was bitching about him giving up and chickening out, but I did the same thing. I was unwilling to work this out with him not living here...I gave up, the same way I accused him of doing. And that was hypocritical of me and childish...I don't agree with him moving out and the reasons, but he feels very strongly about it so I have no choice but to attempt to work this out...

I know that some of you may not understand this, but you'd have to see and feel how it is to be around us to understand that we love each other more than most couples do. We have a connection and love that is one from a movie.

Anyway, I just wanted to stop in and explain things. I have to go eat an apple and get things ready because Greg is coming over in a little while and once mom gets home we are all going to watch True Blood...Great show btw.

:) Happy Blogging!!!!