Changes

Why is it that my mom and I open our house up and allow Kristine and Nic, and their rambunctious puppy, to move back in for a while because they couldn't stay where they were, but we are the ones that have to change our every day routines? Kristine's dog is way too playful and is constantly knocking Tamina down, so I made a comment stating so, and Kristine comes back saying, "Why don't you buy one of those circular gates and put Tamina in there so she doesn't get hurt by him and she stays out of the kitchen too." Um...yeah, if anyone went into a circular gate/cage it would be her dog. Her dog is sweet, but he is a puppy that won't listen when there is too much going on. Mom and I have a way of handling animals when they don't listen, and it is not by hitting them. I will admit that the only time I hit one of the dogs, is when they knock Tamina over or hurt her because they are being careless, and even then I am not beating them. Kristine and Nic hit the dog like crazy when he does something wrong, so today my mom made a comment about it and Kristine blew up saying that he is her dog and she can do whatever she wants and she began acting like a 5 year old throwing a tantrum. Kristine is now pregnant, shh don't tell anyone, and I am HATING it! She is seriously only 5 weeks pregnant, but she is constantly yelling or screaming or crying. I realize I was emotional during my pregnancy, but she is ridiculous. Because of what went down yesterday with her and Nic, she told mom she was going to ignore me for the rest of her life, yeah totally adult of her. Anyway, she was mad at me for being mad at them for disrespecting me and Tamina by acting like idiots and cursing like sailors around Tamina. I'm sorry but I would rather my daughter not learn the words they both say every five seconds. I do not see this living situation working out very well at all. We were getting along before they came back, but now with every day that passes, it gets closer and closer to how angry and frustrated I always was when they were here before. I don't want to be angry all time, I don't want Tamina to have to feel tension in the house all the time. I have been biting my tongue as much as I can, but I am running short on patience with them. I told Cyara that I can't wait for them to move out, and guess what!? She told Kristine! What the hell! So that is another reason Kristine is angry and upset with me. This whole situation is ridiculous and I refuse to play this game for long. If they are going to be here for a long time I wish they would let me know, because I would find somewhere else to live. Tamina is getting sick, she's laying in her crib sleeping lightly because she can't breathe out of her nose. It is the saddest thing! She has never had a cold, ever, so I am going to be a nervous wreck this entire time. She has an excellent immune system due to the fact that she had MRSA at two months old, so I am sure she will be fine, but it won't make me any less paranoid or worried. I feel so bad for my baby girl! I have finals in about a week or so, joy! I am so worried about how I am going to do on them, especially with so much else on my mind. I have to work in the morning so I am going to go text Joe a little more and then hit the sack. I'll tell him you all said hi! :) Happy Blogging!!

A few pictures of Tamina

So, today has been better on the Greg front. Hopefully the LOOOOOOONG talk we had last night actually gets through his head. I was in such a bad mood earlier before I came home, but once I got home and saw the beautiful face of my daughter I instantly felt better. Tamina is my whole world, and how could she not be? Look at that cute little face!! When I got home I asked Kristine, yeah her and her boyfriend are living here again....for now! Anyway, I asked Kristine if she would keep an eye on Tamina for about 20 minutes so I could do a test for school and she said okay. The next thing I know her and Nic (her boyfriend) are standing right next to Tamina, yelling and screaming at each other. Every other word out of Nic's mouth was GD and every other word out of Kristine's mouth was the F word. I looked at both of them and had to hold back for screaming at them both. I said I'm taking Tamina in the room with me and all of a sudden Kristine started attacking me. I don't have the patience for them anymore, especially when it comes to them fighting around Tamina. Today was a long day at work, and I honestly don't really have much to say. I think I am going to go watch "Kill Bill Vol. 1." Happy Blogging Everyone!!

So, I was asked today why I don't blog anymore and I didn't have answer. Why don't I? I miss blogging, it used to be my escape, my place to vent and say things that I can't say to anyone else. Things have been great with Tamina. She is off of all of the tubes and oxygen and everything, she is almost a year and a half, she's talking and walking, and she is the most beautiful and best behaved baby I have ever seen! I would be absolutely lost without my little girl!! I'll have to post some new pictures soon!

I am in college now, I go through University of Phoenix online. I am going for Early Childhood Education and I am loving it! Up until this set of classes I had a 4.0 but these classes are kicking my butt! I am still writing and wanting to publish my book but I still don't know how. Everything seems more difficult now a days, especially things with Greg. Yes, we are still having problems.

I have found inappropriate pictures, texts, emails, etc... And I have actually made him leave for a few weeks. Just when I think things are getting better I find more bad things though. I don't know what to do anymore, most of the time I feel so inadequate because of the things he does or doesn't do. He keeps saying things will be different but they are barely changing. This is the last chance though, I won't stay with him just for Tamina, that would make us all miserable. I have caught him enough times that he has finally changed all of his passwords, so now I can't even see what's going on anymore and I hate it! There is no trust, and that causes a lot of problems. The other night he said he was going to hang out at his dads and I ended up finding out he was out at the bar with friends. If there is nothing to hide, why not tell me where your going? I'm at my wits end guys!

I'm still friends with Joe, and I have a lot to say about him. I'll have to save that story for later though because I have to get back to work!

It feels good to be back. Happy Blogging!!!!

So I know its been awhile since I've written in here but I NEED to vent. Greg makes me feel like Tamina and I are an inconvenience in his sad little life. Like last night for instance was his birthday so he went out and got completely hammered....what an adult.He knew he had to watch Tamina today because everyone else had to work and he still went out and got shit faced and didn't come home until 2 am. Now that I am home he's in there sleeping off a hangover. Which yeah right now you all are probably thinking, wow this chick is nuts, get over it. It was his birthday,let him sleep. But there's so much more, and maybe you'll understand once I'm done.

Since we got home from the hospital Greg and I have BARELY spent ANY time together. First it was because he was in school and always had homework and blah blah blah. Any free time he had he was in the room ALONE being moody and cranky watching sports. Then he started work and now he doesn't come home until 12-1 o'clock in the morning when he gets off work at 11. What the hell am I supposed to think about that? He goes out drinking with the 'boys' after work EVERY NIGHT. Well someone posted a picture on facebook the other day of him out with his boss and two girls the other night. Again WTF am I supposed to think about that?

I asked him to come home after work so we could spend at least a little bit of time together before I had to go to bed for work in the morning. And does he do it? NOPE he continues to go out and drink every night. Then I make comments like obviously I care about spending time with you more than you do me. And I get the response that I'm being a drama queen or that an hour before I have to sleep doesn't matter so he might as well stay out. Last night he didn't even ask me to stay with him and hang out. He made a comment after the fact and then said 'well I didn't think you'd want to. I figured you'd want to stay in like you always do.' The FEW times he has actually asked me to go out I have went, so that he could have fun with his friends and I could spend time with him.

All I ever want or wanted was to spend time with him, and all he ever wants is to spend time with his friends. It makes me feel like crap....I have tried plenty of times to do things with him or suggest things we could do together. The end result is always the same....I never get any time.... I try talking to him and I never get anywhere....I'm always over reacting or being a drama queen....

I don't know what to do anymore....I feel unwanted...useless. Tamina is the best thing in my life and the only person, besides my mother, that loves me unconditionally....I guess I'll have to get used to only having her.

By the way today is Elijah's due date....Probably another reason I am so upset and cranky....I miss him.

Small update

Here is a short update. I've been so busy lately I haven't had time to get on here and update anyone. Tamina is still doing wonderful. She's rolling over and making all the cute little cooing sounds she should be. She will hopefully be off oxygen soon, I won't know for sure when until the beginning of next week though. She's 7 pounds 10 ounces and 19 inches long. She isn't having ANY developmental delays like everyone thought she would, which is fabulous!!

I've been working and working, nothing really new with me. Greg has finals next week, thank God!! I can't wait for him to be out of school. Maybe he won't be so moody and cranky all the time, and maybe he'd actually wanna spend some time with me and show affection like he used to. I miss the way he used to be, now he's stand off-ish and blah all the time. It sucks.

I don't have much to say at the moment, plus it's time for Taminas bath. :) Until I write again, take care all!!

Happy Blogging!!

Pictures and more

I know it's late but there are a few pictures of Tamina when she was first born. I just got a new lap top and for some reason the old one wouldn't let me post pictures. I have plenty of pictures but I have to add them to this computer and once I do, I will post them on here.

I do have quite a few things to talk about, and I'm not sure I have time to get into it all at the moment but I will start with a few.

Once, Tamina is doing wonderful. She is still on oxygen but not for long. She is about 7 pounds and growing well. She's off her feeding tube and is eating like a little piglet. She is doing wonderful and I am so blessed.

Greg and I have been having problems lately....It's hard with him being in school and then having a baby on top of that makes it so much harder. I'm not going to go into detail but he did something bad recently that has really shaken my faith and trust in him....He didn't cheat, I just want to clarify that. Granted now I am constantly wondering, just because my trust in him was ruined.

We weren't intimate for almost 5-6 months and I know that was really bothering him, so that on top of school, on top of a screaming baby all the time, on top of all the stress of a new baby makes me want to scream!! Up until Saturday I seriously went almost two weeks without him kissing me and even longer without him saying I love you....How do you get past that? How do you trust someone who won't hug or kiss you or tell you they love you? I'm going to stop talking about Greg and I for now, but I will talk more about it later on, trust me....

I started working at Hardings again. I am only a cashier of course, but I already have all my hours back, thank goodness. I work 5 days a week at at least 33-37 hrs. I'm glad, I like working. Joe is still working there, so of course we have started talking a lot again. Emailing all the time and what not. I missed our friendship. I really need a friend that I can trust and depend on and I believe that is Joe. :))

Okay, I lied I want to add something else about Greg that just happened. Monday's are supposed to be our "family day" the day where Greg, Tamina, and I spend time together as our own little unit without anyone else around....He OF COURSE had homework and OF COURSE still isn't done. Because while doing his homework he watches tv and makes it take 50 times longer....So apparently my plan for the night is like every other night, go in the room and read and then sleep.

I am trying to be the understanding girlfriend of a college student. But we need our time together, especially now when all we do is change diapers and make bottles. I don't know, obviously I'm the only one that feels that way, he doesn't seem to bothered by it. Anyway, It's time for me to go into the room and read.

I will keep you all posted on Tamina and my crazy insane drama filled life. :) I missed you all and thank you all for your prayers and good thoughts. You guys helped save Tamina's life!!

Much love and Happy Blogging!!

Update on Tamina

Well it's been awhile since I've written. Tamina is now 10 weeks old and she is doing great. She's 4 pounds 2 oz and will hopefully be coming home any day now. All we are waiting on is for her to get better at bottle feeding. :)) I have been with her since day one here at the hospital, only leaving twice due to the stomach flu.

I have had a lot of interesting expierences here so far. I met a doctor from south Africa that specializes in kangaroo mother care. He was pretty awesome. Tamina and I were on the news.....if you go to fox28.com and type in Nicole Ochart in the swath box you'll see it. I've been to meetings and have learned so much.

If you want to see pictures go to my facebook. Again type nicole Ochart into the search box and you'll find me.

I will officially be divorced on the 28th of this month and my GED graduation ceremony is coming up soon.

Btw is anyone else having trouble uploading pictures??

I can't wait to hear from everyone. My new email is ngaet5@gmail.com

Love and miss you all!!

<3 Nicole and Tamina <3

Tamina Camille Walton

Okay, I'm sure some of you, if not all, are wondering what in the heck is going on with the pregnancy...Well, there is no pregnancy anymore. I had Tamina on December 1st at 1:38 pm. She was 1 pound 3 oz and was 11 inches long. Tamina is now 1 pound 7 oz and 12 1/2 inches long and doing better than I could have even imagined!! I have been trying to figure out how to put pictures on here of her and it's not working. I think the hospital has it blocked or something. So instead I am going to give you all my name and you MUST find me on facebook so you can see the pictures. My face book account is under Nicole Ochart. I'm the only one on there I believe. :) :)

Ever since she was born I have been in the hospital. I got discharged on the 4th and checked into the Ronald McDonald house the same day. I haven't left and I don't plan to.

Tamina is breathing on her own, she has a c-pap, which keeps her lungs open and pretty much reminds her to breathe and she gets a bit of oxygen when she needs it. We breathe 21% oxygen and most of the time she gets down to 22% if not room air. :) So she is fabulous. She is the smallest baby in the nicu and is also one of the healthiest. :) She has some tummy issues though, that first stool, the tarry stool, hasn't been coming out so she is backed up pretty bad.

They give her sepositories, enemas, and also did a test on here where they injected a contrast into her rectum to dilude the poop. It worked, she has been pooping a lot more and has actually been started on my breast milk today!! :) Only a cc every 3 hours, but my goodness I'm glad she can finally eat it. :) :) I'm so proud of her!!!!

I'm going to go, I have to pump again soon and I'd like to relax a little before I do. :) Don't forget to get over to Facebook to see the pictures!! :) <3 Keep praying for my little fighter!!!!! :) :) :) :)

GAH!!!!!

Okay, well I've been put back into the hospital. I went in for my regular appointment and he said to come back on Friday for another appointment and sent me home. Then he called around 6 or so and said I needed to come in and be admitted again. Now I'm pretty sure I'm here until we deliver the baby, which he said in his professional opinion will be soon.........

She is only one pound one ounce right now....her chances are not the greatest, but I am still keeping faith that she will be okay. I have to!! She is so strong and she has fought so hard already, she can do this!! She can make it!! And if she doesn't I know they tried everything they could to bring her into this world alive. I'm trying to stay positive and keep my head up but it's getting a little bit difficult now....

If she would just gain a little bit of weight I think it would be alright to deliver so soon....but she's so tiny...I don't know. I'm just updating you guys. I will let you all know more as soon as I know more. He is coming in to talk to me tomorrow morning so hopefully I know something tomorrow...I don't know though.

25 weeks ultrasound pictures and updates

Here's some ultrasound pictures of my little fighter!!!! :) She's so precious!! She wasn't cooperating for the 3D ultrasound, little stinker!! But we got some of her face and her gorgeous little hand lol. :) I hate to break it to anyone else in the world with a baby, but if my baby's hand is that gorgeous and perfect I can't imagine that the rest of her won't be as well, meaning she is the most beautiful in the world. LOL :)

She has been doing plenty of kicks to keep me happy and reassure me that she is alright in there. I have another appointment on Monday at 12:45, whether I come home from there or go to the hospital again I don't know. I'm sure it will be alright though. She's still being very active and everything. :) I love her and I can't believe that even if I go full term she will be here so SOON!!!!

Last night we were all sitting around and all of a sudden my nose started bleeding like crazy. It was like gushing out like someone cut it off! lol It was nuts!! It stopped pretty quickly though, so it wasn't too bad. It just freaked me out for a second. Of course I still called the hospital to ask about it, what can I say I'm paranoid!! :)

Well I will post and let you know what went on at my doctor appointment on Monday. So unless something happens before then, I will talk to y'all in a few days. :) :)

Happy Blogging!!

Baby update!!

Well I went in for my regular doctor appointment yesterday and they admitted me into the hospital to monitor the baby. She is doing great though.

My doctor said that I have blood clots behind my placenta, which is obviously not good and what is causing her to be so small. She isn't getting the nutrition and everything that she needs. He said it would be like me eating only half of what I eat. I'd be able to survive but I wouldn't be as healthy as I should be, and eventually it would take it's toll on me.

He assured me that there is a VERY good chance of her living and being okay. :) So I am pretty happy today to know all of that. HOWEVER, I AM EXHAUSTED!!!! It is very difficult to sleep in a hospital, I'm just saying!!

Anyway, I'm going to lay here and watch tv and relax. Happy Thanksgiving everyone by the way!!

Please still keep us in your thoughts and prayers!! :) :) :) :)

happy Blogging!!

a mini update

I haven't been sleeping well the past few days, well really the whole pregnancy. But it has, of course, been harder since they told me about Tamina being so small. We are trying to stay positive. She is moving around and kicking and punching me just like she should. I mean it's technically supposed to be 10 movements in an hour but she does it whenever she feels like it. Sometimes it's 10 in an hour sometimes it's 25 in an hour and sometimes it's only 5 in an hour.

She's obviously very strong and VERY STUBBORN!! On Wednesday night I made mom take me to the hospital because I hadn't felt her move all day, the second they put that monitor on me she started kicking it. lol She's going to give me a heart attack you know!!

I'm very glad that she is still doing okay. I just can't help but wonder why I have such a problem having a healthy full term baby!? Why did things go south at 6 months like they did with Elijah? Why isn't she gaining the weight she needs to? Why didn't Elijah?? Are the steroids helping her!?

I have an appointment on Monday at 8 am to get a 3D/4D ultrasound done and also see if the steroids have helped, I'm assuming! She is still moving around and hitting me so she must be doing okay....I hope she stays doing well.

Keep us in your prayers please!!

upsetting news

I had a doctor appointment today and they did an ultrasound and found that the baby is very small. She is supposed to be about a pound and a half and she is not even a pound yet....So they gave me steroids just in case I have to deliever her soon.....

I don't really have anything else to say...I'm nervous and scared....I did some googling and saw that if a baby is born at 26 weeks it has an 80% chance of living....Hopefully she is one of them. I'm only at 24 weeks now....

A few things

So on Saturday we had a paranormal investigation team come out to our house because of all of the activity we have going on here. While they were here they caught a bunch of things. We made contact with at least 2 spirits. One being someone, a female, who I know that is here to take care of the baby and I. The second one is my moms step dad. And then we also have confirmation that there are also children and such here as well.

So anyway, they got a picture of a shadow, I have to get permission but I'm sure it will be fine if I post it once I do. :) Also they have some EVP recordings that I will tell you about after I hear them. That will be either tomorrow or Friday, we aren't sure yet. :) It's very exciting and we are planning on doing it again soon. :)

On a less happy note, I FOUND HUGE FREAKING STRETCH MARKS ON MY BELLY!!!! Not in a place that I can see when i look down but in a place I saw in the mirror while I was admiring my HUGE belly!! Omg, it's awful!! lol I just poured like half a bottle of lotion on my stomach lol.

I know that it is totally worth a healthy baby to have these crazy stretch marks, but my goodness do I feel ugly now!! :(

Anyway, I will post when I get the results of everything. OOOOOOOOH and by the way, I got my GED certificate!! YAY me!!

Pain

You know people make me feel like a whiny little brat when I keep saying how much pain I am always in. How my back hurts so bad I'm almost in tears half the time, or my feet are so swollen I can't stand for more than 10 minutes before I can literally feel them swelling more, or how I can't even clap my hands or make a fist because I am so sore.

People make me feel like a little baby when I ask for them to rub my back because I am so sore, or I cringe when they move to fast because it makes me move my back. I don't have just regular pregnancy back pain and swelling...I have that plus my fibro pain and I'm getting so angry and upset with EVERYONE because no one is taking it seriously!!

It's so frustrating because my doctor won't even do anything about it!! He said to get massages by people in the house but when I ask no one will do it but Greg and usually when Greg does it he is pissed off or irritated about it or whatever. Which okay fine I get, no one likes to massage people but guess what!?!?!?!?!?!? I DON'T LIKE BEING IN PAIN and I would freaking massage him every day if he was in as much pain as I am...

Then when I make a comment about how he isn't doing it or whatever, he makes comments like I go to school and work and have shit loads of home work and I'm tired and my hands hurt so I'm sorry I don't want to massage your back! It makes me feel like shit!! I'M SORRY I CAN'T HELP THAT I'M IN PAIN!!

I wish my stupid asshole doctor would just send me to a massage therapist or something that way we all win. Because on nights like tonight, where I just want to cry because I am in so much pain, and no one will help me by rubbing my back for 5 minutes. I just get pissed and want to lay down and go to sleep. Which I also can't do on days where I am in this much pain because I can't move or get comfortable!!

This is my life on a daily basis, pregnant or not. The only difference is that when I am not pregnant I'm popping my pain meds left and right!!

I just want to cry....

....

The day started off great....I got my scores from my GED which are as follows:
Language Arts, Reading- Standard score 620- percentile rank 88
Language Arts, Writing- Standard score 600- Percentile Rank 84
Mathematics- Standard score 490- Percentile Rank 46
Science- Standard score 580- Percentile Rank 79
Social Studies- Standard score 530- Percentile Rank 62

As you can see I didn't do all that well in anything but reading and writing but the bottom line is that I passed.... :) For someone who hasn't been in school since 8th grade I did pretty well!! :)

Anyway, the day started off good and was good up until about an hour ago. Mom and I were in the living room talking and Cyara came out with attitude, like usual, asking when we were going to bed. We told her we were talking and we didn't know and continued with our conversation.

She then came back out into the living room and sat on the couch right next to mom and was talking on her cell phone, not quietly I might add, while mom and I were still trying to talk. I kept shooting her dirty looks but she ignored every one of them. I swear she likes pissing me off.

Then all of a sudden she put her phone on speaker and started text messaging while her boyfriend sat there texting someone on the other end. So I made a comment like why in the world do you guys text message while you're on the phone that's freaking weird. OMG it was like I called her names!!

She started snapping with the most disgusting attitude, showing off for her little boyfriend of course!! So because I CAN NOT STAND HER ATTITUDE I yelled back at her! And mom sat there and yelled at me, so I got even more pissed off and continued to yell because I am so sick and tired of being the only one that gets yelled at in those kinds of situations. When in reality if Cyara would knock it off with the freaking attitude we would NOT have these problems.

So I snapped on mom this time and yelled that she started the entire argument and ruined the night and mom said I know. So then I yelled back saying then yell at her also!! So she did...she yelled at both of us, and even though she isn't speaking to me right now at least Cyara got bitched at as well!!

I'm just so frustrated, I know I am 22 years old but that does not mean I have the patience to deal with a snotty 14 year old wanna be know it all! I have 14 years to prepare me for that crap!!

Anyway, I'm going to do something to calm myself down and hopefully make my night end better....

GED

I'm going to start by saying that................I PASSED MY GED!!!!!!!!!!!!! :) I don't know my scores yet but the woman sounded a little impressed lol. That of course couldn't have anything to do with the math score. But at this point I am just glad that I passed it all. :) I'm so happy about it!! Now I just have to think on what I should do about school.

Should I wait until Tamina is about a year old or so, to make it easier on myself? Should I find somewhere where I can take like one class at a time? I know I could handle that. Should I just take the chance and enroll and start soon? Eh, I think I might see if I can take one class at a time for now and if I can't I'll just wait until the baby is a little older. :) Either way I'm excited!!

Tamina is doing well from what we know of. I have another appointment on the 16th...I'll be 6 months then. (The same as I was when I lost Elijah.) If she is fine on that day I think we will pull through this!! :) Please keep us in your thoughts and prayers.

We have been having a lot of paranormal activity going on lately. There has been loud banging on the walls and no one will be near them, my bed has been shaking, doors are opened when I remember closing them, etc... I'm not scared or anything I'm just curious to know what or who is here. So I called an investigator who is coming for an interview tonight.

I'm not sure when we will be doing the investigation with the equipment, but when we do I will post our findings. :) The spirits we have are not scary or disrespectful. When they are shaking the bed or making a racket all I have to do is ask them to stop and they do. So I know we are not threatened. :)

Anyway, I'm going to go watch a movie or something. Thanks for listening!!

Happy Blogging!!

Nothing much

I found a website where you can watch movies off line. :) We have watched quite a few movies that aren't out on DVD yet. Good thing there are people in this world that don't follow the rules, it makes it to where I am able to enjoy things I shouldn't yet. lol

I'm watching 'Birth Day' there aren't any Halloween movies on, what's that about!?!? I don't really have anything new to say today, nothing has really happened so I haven't written.

I'm going to go drink my coffee and do Elijah's blanket probably. :)

5 1/2 months tomorrow by the way!! I love my little girl!!

Happy Blogging!!

ultasound pictures almost 5.5 months

I love my baby cakes!!!! :) :) She's soo pretty already!! :) Everything looks great and perfect so far. Almost 5 1/2 months now!! :)

A painful couple days

First of all I want to start off by saying that I just looked at my followers and I realized that I have 35. WOW :) Thank you all for following!! :) I hope I don't bore you all too much with my boring drama filled life. If anything at least it should make you happy that you are not me lol. :) :)

I may have mentioned this already but it bares repeating. I am having a HORRIBLE fibromyalgia flare up. It started probably two days ago. My hands are swollen, my feet are swollen, my back is hurting SO SO SO SO BAD, my knees, shins, calves, fingers, finger NAILS, and everything else on my body hurt!! :( Yesterday I was bawling my eyes out just moving. Today I am in a lot of pain as well but not quite as bad as yesterday. Yesterday it was everywhere that hurt so badly, today its my hands and my back. The worst part is that on top of it all my hands feel warm, like they have a fever when I close them.

I'll bring it up to my doctor but he will say the same thing he said last time, 'welcome to pregnancy.' Douche bag!! It's not just pregnancy, it's pregnancy and fibromyalgia put together!! That combo sucks!!!!

Tomorrow I'm supposed to go to Pete's house warming party at 4 and then to Greg's dad's birthday party after that. If I don't feel better I can't go to either!! :( :( And I will seriously be pissed. I haven't seen my friends in so long!! I really hope I feel better tomorrow, at least good enough to go for a little while....

I'm almost to where I was when I lost Elijah, I'm three weeks away....At 6 months pregnant I have to up my dosage of heparin to a full syringe....YIKES!! I'm so worried about her kicking really hard when I put the needle in...It's already getting hard to get enough fat together on my tummy to put the needle in fast and painless, I can't imagine once she is big enough to kick and hurt me....Or kick the needle. It worries me so much.

Well I'm tired, I'm going to bed.

Happy Blogging my beautiful readers!!!! <3